DON'T GET ON THE TRACKS!!!

If you can't stop a train, and you can't outrun it, what do you do? Its a simple question. Some might say JUMP OFF THE DAMN TRACKS! Now...what if your on a bridge? Forty foot cliffs on both sides of you. What do you do? Well...theres nothing to do. Die, just, die. Bleak isn't it? Theres no chance of being saved, is there? Isn't that a great analog for life? No matter what you do you die. Do you jump half way threw? Do you let it run you over?

Take that how you will.

Also; Life is great on my end of the screen. ^_^

Waves...

The waves break gently
They roll over sand and coral.
They break over one another
For fear of death they never live!

When I look

When I look to the sky
I know you're there
Holding me
So many days have passed
So many tears.

When I look to the sea
I see the rolling waves,
Like a turbulent life
They shatter one another
And destroy the sand.

When I look to your eyes
I see nothing but joy
I see the future
I do not see pain
I see love
I love you.

1 John 3:18

First of all: Merry Christmas

Now its time to look at an unrelated bible scripture...

1 John 3:18: Dear children, let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth.

Isn't that the truth? This is not just meant for children, but also for adults. I've been lied to before, and let me tell you what, nothing hurts worse then when someone tells you they love you, and then when it comes down to it, doesn't really. I mean, ACTUALLY believing that they love you, and that you love them. Well, I hate to be the downer who says this, but love? There isn't love. Why do I need to trust my heart in the hands of someone who lies to me, who themselves they have fooled into thinking they truly care, but don't when it comes down to it. It breaks my heart when I see this happening...because I've been there. Every day there seems to be less and less good about humanity, more and more bad. It really makes me sad seeing it like this. How people can just be morons...just be...idiots! True love. Two words that you think you know sometimes...but you don't really. Anyone can say "I love you." but I ask you to show me one person who is willing to show it when it comes down to it. Maybe there are people who are in "true love", but I'm yet to see anyone who really gives a damn in my generation! How can we ignore the signs? We are not our parents, for they truly love each other, we are our parents parents who married off not due to love, but due to there parents! Sometimes I feel sick at todays teenagers. They who know not love when children will surly not know love when they are adults. Yes, I'm blaming this on your parents. I don't know, I only know a small number of the teenage population, but they don't care about love. They don't care about each other. When my sister was dating Levi I was sure, and still am, that if it came down to it, he'd rather have a fuck doll then save Haley's life. How can people lie threw there teeth!? You don't love him, you don't love her! You don't know what love is!!!!! Knowing what love is changes you so much. You know what friendship is, you know what kinship is, and you know what love is. Some will say love is an emotion, which is true. Others will say love is a word, which is also true, but love? Love isn't a word or a feeling. Love is something you do. Love is more like riding a bike then it is writing a letter. I sit here writing in a moment of clarity and pain. I might have lost someone I love. Love. I know what it is. I've let it slip threw my fingers...but I'm sure soon that I'll find someone new, and forget all about him...or maybe not. Maybe no one really knows what love is, maybe the universe controls love. You're going to be put with who you are anyway you stack it. Maybe you'll date this person, and then they'll leave you or vice versa. But if you truly love them, don't give up. Never forget. Never forget the feelings they made you have, never forget how amazing people can be. Life...I've lost faith in it once in a while, but other times, its so beautiful, if you just slow down and look around. Now as I write this, my eyes are wet with tears. My heart is flooded with sorrow and pain...and a strange since of happiness. What a mix of emotions, don't you think? Its 3:03 Christmas morning, my family is snug in there beds, they don't know my pain and sorrow. Tomorrow is just another Christmas to them, as another year passes by. 2009 has been so amazing, huh? I've grown up so much this year...I've found who I am. I've came to grips with liking guys, My grandparents have found out, my mother was put in jail in 2008, and it was the first time i saw her in over a year. I've met someone I equate to my Tiger Woods, he's a great friend...just is doing everything with a hole...and if it doesn't have one, he makes one. I've gotten a crush on people, been in love triangles, been single, lost friends, gained friends, became much more daring...just so many things.

¹⁴ if My people who are called by My name will humble themselves, and pray and seek My face, and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin and heal their land. (2 Chronicles 7:14, New King James Version)

I had to post that...

What a past few weeks...or should I say past Fall...it has been hell. Justin died, I got into a love triangle, broke up with one of the sides of it, and then was broken up with by the other, who lied, by saying he didn't want a Long distance relationship, and then getting into one. But its fine, now. I got back together with the person I broke up with. I had a short relationship with someone--Who also shall remained nameless--who said he was just using me. Which I'm so thankful that he didn't lie. I came out--or was pushed out of the closet. Found out lots of things about friends...some of which made me cry. Been in a few tight places-some of which I am still in, but, there being worked out and I don't wanna say yet. Just between a rock and a hard, hard spot. Though its been crushing me...in an odd way. I'm happy...ish. Ah, ish, such a word. Ish. Kind of. Happyish. I've never been happier, to tell the truth. I've been writing non-depressing things. I mean, they've not all been super-duper happy, but better then before. Hell, lots better then before. I was able to see my mom for the first time in a year or so...and I cried that night...it was so great to see her, and hug her. I pray that this is the last time she does anything like this. Friends have had some problems but over all they've been worked out. Some are dealing with them, others aren't. I'm always there for them, though. Ah, I love ranting on this blog. Speaking of ranting, I'm going to rant about TWC soon.

Or now.

Really? REALLY WEATHER CHANNEL? Storm Stories I could understand. But movies? Al Roker? Covering a murder? Whats next, I mean, like, what? Live audiences? I was pissed when you moved A&B to the morning. I let it go without a blog post. But Al Roker!? MURDERS!? You guys use to make weather FUN, not weather marketable. Now? Now I wish I could find my remote when WUWA (No, I DO NOT WUWA) comes on, or for that fact, MANY titles. I hate to say it, but Accuweather is being more weather-like then you are. There, I said it. ACCU-WE FAIL MOST OF THE TIME-WEATHER is better then The (only concerned with money now) weather corporation!

Okay. Now that thats out.

A letter to my ex mate, Justin, who I've posted many times about before...

I looked up into the air today, and took in the clouds like you always wanted me to. Its been a while from when you last said I'll love you forever. I guess it was all for the best. I told myself that by this time I'd have moved on, but alas, I haven't. People say two males CANNOT love one another, even though I've poured my life out again. I'm sorry I hurt you hun. I really am. What was I thinking? If it weren't for me you'd still be around, breathing, living, smiling, and holding me. It seems like yesterday we were shopping, though I was suppose to be in school. Do you remember when we saw my teacher at the store, right after school let out, and I was kinda freaking out, but you handled it so greatly. I was a fool then to let go of something--someone as good as you...and I've done it again. When will I ever learn Justin?

Theres some more personal stuff that I'd rather not post.

Its sad, when you give two f-u awards in a day.

SUDAN! FUCK YOU! http://www.mirror.co.uk/news/top-stories/2009/11/28/50-lashes-for-skirt-girl-16-in-sudan-115875-21856536/

Thats wrong. BELOW THE KNEES! Hell, in america, you can wear whatever you want if its not nude. And even than, if you wear blocks, it'll still work!

Bomb in Russia...

I'm sure all of you have heard by now of the train bombing in Russia. It was "an act of terror" and thats the truth.

Moscow, Russia (CNN) -- Investigators have found "elements of an explosive device" at the site of the derailment of an express train in Russia and believe an act of terror caused the deadly incident.
The derailment killed at least 26 people and injured about 100, but there was no immediate word on who or what group might have been behind the action.
"One can say with certainty that that was indeed an act of terror," Vladimir Markin, spokesman for the investigative committee of the Russian prosecutor's office, told CNN.
He would not elaborate on exactly what kind of "elements of an explosive device" the investigators discovered earlier, but said the crater found beneath the railroad bed was "1.5 meter by 1 meter in size."
Later Saturday morning, a second device went off on nearby tracks going the opposite direction, Vladimir Yakunin, head of Russian Railways, told Russian TV. He said no one was injured in the smaller explosion.
Markin said investigators are "studying the site of the accident, questioning the witnesses and conducting all kinds of forensic and technical examinations."
Federal Security Service Director Alexander Bortnikov said, "Criminology experts have come to a preliminary conclusion that there was an explosion of an improvised explosive device equivalent to seven kilos of TNT.
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"Several leads are being pursued now. A criminal case has been opened under Article 205 ("terrorism") and Article 22 ("illegal possession or storage of weapons or explosives") of the Russian Criminal Code."
Russian Interior Minister Rashid Nurgaliyev said on TV that there are possible suspects in this crime.
"There are several people who could be involved in this crime," he said. One of them, he said, is a "stocky-built man of about 40 years old, with red hair."
"There are some traces left at the crime scene which could help in the investigation," he said. "We are getting a lot of information now, and I am very thankful for people who have responded to our requests to render their assistance in investigating this crime."
A total of 681 people -- 20 of them employees -- were on the Nevsky Express as it traveled from Moscow to St. Petersburg on Friday night. The Nevsky Express is Russia's fastest train, equivalent to a bullet train.
The crash happened at 9:25 p.m. (1825 GMT) when the train was 280 kilometers (174 miles) from St. Petersburg, Russian state radio said.
At least three carriages carrying more than 130 people derailed and turned on their sides, and emergency workers were working to free anyone who may still be trapped inside.
Yakunin told Russian TV that the company will pay a compensation of 500,000 rubles ($17,240) to the victims' families and 200,000 rubles ($6,897) to those injured.
The crash happened 44 minutes after another high-speed train, the Sapsan, had successfully traveled from Moscow to St. Petersburg on the same rails, a representative of the Russian Transport Police said during a video conference call Saturday.
In August 2007, an explosion on the tracks derailed the Nevsky Express, injuring 60 people in what authorities called a terrorist act. About 27,000 passengers on 60 trains were facing delays Saturday as a result of the accident, Russian State TV reported.

--http://www.cnn.com/2009/WORLD/europe/11/28/russia.train.crash/index.html

Thats sad and wrong. When will humans get over killing?

Whoever did this gets a big fuck-u award.

More on the Cross burning JACKASSES...

Okay, heres my bigger write up on what happened...

Racism...a word that has such an impact. Dictionaries say that Racism is a noun, however, I find it to be a verb. Racism is to be racist, or to discriminate based on your country of origin. I, however, believe that racism should include things such as sexism and gender preference discrimination. This all co-insides with the moral decline of America. Oh people of America, what has happened to the love of the 70's and 80's? Why did we loose the values, and yet kept the drugs...

this is what I leave you with

⁵ Trust in the LORD with all your heart,
      And lean not on your own understanding;
       ⁶ In all your ways acknowledge Him,
      And He shall direct your paths.
       (Proverbs 3:5-6, New King James Version)

ANOTHER F-U AWARD!

Yeah. Another one. But this really makes me mad.

After Burning Cross, Police Search For Culprit In Possible Ethnic Intimidation Case
Posted: 11:57 am EST November 16, 2009
Updated: 11:04 pm EST November 16, 2009

ROBINSON TOWNSHIP, Pa. -- Police said the incident happened over the weekend at Joe and Mary Walbeck's house in Robinson Township.
A 6-foot wooden cross was found on Sunday charred on the Walbeck’s lawn on Chestnut Street.
Officials are describing it as an act of ethnic intimidation.
The Walbeck family is white that has an adopted African-American teenager.
Shaquille Howard has lived with the family for three years and plays football at United High in Armagh.
“I’ve learned to deal with stuff like this over time from my high school principal and football coaches,” said Howard. “They taught me that if you can overcome adversity then you’ll make it far in life.”
Joe Walbeck told Channel 11 News reporter Alan Jennings that he can’t imagine why this would have happened.
"It’s just crazy. Something like this happened maybe 30 years ago or something you could see it back then, but now I thought everybody’s got over this kind of stuff ya know," said Walbeck.
Walbeck also said this is the first incident.
State Trooper John Matchik said charges could range from trespassing to ethnic intimidation.
So far, there are no suspects in this case.
If you have any information you are asked to call police.

That really makes me mad. But the boy is taking it well. I'll have a better write up tomorrow.

The Fuck-U award!

Why should anyone be oppressed? It makes me really mad when I hear about things like this. It really makes me mad. Why would they not let her? Tharptown High School, you've been awarded a fuck-u award! Congrats for crushing someone! Really? They canceled the prom because a lesbian, who contributed greatly to the planning, wanted to bring her girlfriend! HOW is that possible? It just blows my mind. Why should he be able to bring her, but she can't bring her?

Ingore the fallowing...

Don't forget to study for the Mid Unit three test.

When a boy likes a boy, he doesn't care about your fake beliefs. He only cares about that one special boy...

Tweeted that earlier today, after my grandma and I did something like this...

*talk about my boyfriend
Her: You know that the human soul WANTS to sin?
Me: Yeah, but its not a sin. *starts to walk away.
Her: *grabs my shoulder* Don't walk away
Me: *breaks free and leaves to my room slamming the door as I go

I dunno, there all just crazy. My boyfriend emailed them, so I hope that all works out.

Upset to the point of being ill

Yeah, thats me. My family is just being...strange. They've been talking about my boyfriend, and saying things that are bad. It really pisses me off, because if he was a girl, they'd love him. I know that there just standing up for what they believe, but when does that become to much? Maybe when you start making people physically ill, let alone your own flesh and blood? I love God with all my heart, but if I started to upset the ones I love, I wouldn't stop loving God and Jesus, I'd stop talking about it. I love that they believe something that most people don't, BUT MY WORD! You need to stop a few moments, maybe stop for all! Keep loving what you love, and keep believing what you believe! But if it harms others, shut your mouth, preach only when it will help. Religion is a great thing, but when you start going off every moment, you need to stop. This was just me rambling...

love all!

It happens far too often, gays are called names, and there mates are made fun of in front of there faces. Most people don't understand how badly this hurts. I can take being made fun of because of who I am, but when you start to make fun of my boyfriend to my face, be prepared, I'm mostly calm, sweet, and nice, but I'm not scared of you if your low enough to make fun of someone based on things they cannot change, or TRYING to change. Love should have no walls, something that has been mostly lost in this modern day world. I find it symbolic to say this on the 20th anniversary of the Berlin wall falling.

We must tear down the walls of hate and discrimination! We must tear down the walls that separate us! Tear down the walls of hate! Tear down the walls of injustice! Tear down the walls of war! We can not make piece with such walls in our way! We should stride to be accepting of everyone. Gay, Autistic, Black, White, Latino, there is not a difference in the world! Do we not all have a heart in our chests? Do we not all feel sorrow when a little child dies? Do we not all feel guilt when we do something wrong? When the news of the 9/11 terrorist attacks on America trickled in around the world, did we all not feel sorrow for the people who lost there lives, or for the children suddenly without parents, or for the wife, suddenly widowed? Do we not all have emotions that ring out during times of hardship? SHOULD WE NOT FORGET OUR DIFFERENCES FOR THE LOVE OF THE EARTH!? FOR WHAT WE SAY IS TRUE, THAN WHY MUST WE FIGHT!?

We got it.

HEALTH CARE HAS PASSED THE HOUSE...TO SENATE!
Okay, well, this is really good. I know that there are quite a few misconceptions about this, but I think it'll be good. My grandmother has a few things wrong with her, as do many people who are getting older. I know that if she somehow loss her insurance (which if threw my grandfathers job) that there would be literally no one who in there right mind would insure her. Thanks to this bill, which passed 220 to 215 (I think, I'm not 100% sure on the numbers), she will not be able to be turned down based on pre-existing conditions. Heres hoping that it'll pass the Senate!

People who can't take jokes shouldn't laugh at other people's misfortunes

Personally, I try not to laugh at others misfortunes, but I know enough people that do. But when someone laughs at them, they get really angry. There are a few things wrong with something like this. First off, don't laugh at other people (unless they do it on purpose), second off, don't get mad when people do things you do. I hope y'all have a good day.

God Bless!

Two Shootings...

Okay, so yesterday we had a (horrible) shooting at Fort Hood. I wasn't really able to sleep lastnight, nor was I able post to this. But I wrote it before this other shooting...

Yesterday, Thursday November 5th, 2009, America has been attacked. This attack has killed 13 people. 13 human beings. The Jackass, however, is still alive. He is currently in a coma. I'm upset...and mad. Humans NEED to be more loving to one another. People who would be fighting for justice died. 13 people. Now, I hear that he was a major in the army, he was a phycologest, but that doesn't really matter. He was just as human as you and I. This is sad...let him die.

And now today, Friday November 6th, 2009, Another shooting has occurred. One person is presumed dead, 7 are injured. This man is evil. Messed up. Both of them. I'll post more later...I'm sure...but for now, I need to take this in. It hurts me in my heart that someone could be this vain, this selfish...they should be killed.

The Fuck-U award!

http://www.pinknews.co.uk/2009/11/03/france-condemns-ugandas-proposed-anti-gay-law/

The French foreign ministry has attacked a bill in Uganda which would see gay people facing the death penalty.

"France expresses deep concern regarding the bill currently before the Ugandan parliament," the foreign ministry said in a statement sent to AFP in Kampala yesterday.

"France reiterates its commitment to the decriminalisation of homosexuality and the fight against discrimination based on sexual orientation and gender identity."

American lawmakers have also expressed concern over the bill.

leana Ros-Lehtinen, (Republican, Miami), Tammy Baldwin, (Democrat, Wisconsin), Gary Ackerman, (Democrat, New York) and Howard Berman, (Democrat, California), have written to Secretary of State Hillary Clinton warning that it had severe implications for the freedom and safety of gay people.

The letter said: “We write to raise serious concerns about the Anti-Homosexual Bill introduced in Uganda's parliament earlier this month. This egregious bill represents one of the most extreme anti-equality measures ever proposed in any country and would create a legal pretext for depriving lesbian, gay, bisexual, and transgender Ugandans of their liberty, and even their lives.”

The private member's bill was tabled by Ndorwa West MP David Bahati, of the ruling party.

It would create a new crime of "aggravated homosexuality".

According to his bill, those convicted of having gay sex with disabled people and those under the 18 would face the death penalty.

Gay and human rights groups have condemned the proposed laws, saying they would violate basic human rights.

The bill also imposes life imprisonment on those who have homosexual sex. Although this is already the case in Uganda, the new law widens the definition of the offence.

Other offence include promoting homosexuality, aiding and abetting homosexuality and keeping a house "for purposes of homosexuality".

In an article for the Uganda Observer yesterday, Bahati said that homosexuality was not a human right.

He added: " We will never accept homosexuality for the sake of appeasing other countries or as an incentive for their money."

I'll say it. WHAT THE FUCK!? I've decided to start the Fuck-U award, and Uganda, you got it! Congratulations for messing up sooooo bad! Who wants to bet there will be backlash? Eh, no one reads this anyway, and if you do, why don'tcha comment on this post, or at the bottom of the page in the boxy thing? F-U Uganda. You've messed up more than most people have. I'm all for freedom, and this isn't freedom. This is a great win for the homophobic people who seem not to understand love. This is how I feel about all countries that do this to there people. So Uganda, U asked and U got, the Fuck-U award.

(there are great people in Uganda, this F-U award is to the government)

I like your Christ, but....

"I like your Christ, but I don't like your Christians. Your Christians are so unlike your Christ." --Matahama Gandhi said that, and it got me thinking. WHY ARE WE SO UNLIKE WHO WE SAY WE WORSHIP! Is it possible that we just say we are followers of the Christ, but do not truly know him? Some assume he'd be out killing the gays, killing the Muslims, but isn't Jesus all about love? My blogs outlook on life has changed a lot from when I started it back in June (or July?), when I was talking about dumb things that happened in my life, but now its started on morals. But honestly, my Christian friends (and though I doubt I have many readers, I can only hope to get more), take a look at what you say daily, in fact, EVERYONE take a look at what you're saying. We humans are a selfish race. We'd rather watch someone freeze to death, than go out of our comfort zone to help our friends...or even random people. Why would we rather have people die than give them a blanket?

We are all the same...

People are so mean, that it makes me laugh. Isn't it so weired how money and items can buy you out of almost anything? I gave my sister a two hundred dollar thing, and she in return is going to stop yelling at me about my boyfriend. I mean, I had to give her something that she should do regardless. Its sad when a family isn't able to be there for one another. I know its only three more years (or two, depending), but its going to be a hard one. I must ask, though, why is it so important to get what you want at the expense of others? Will good things not happen to those who do good? Will human things inevitably fail? Is this world not temporary? Is there not another waiting for us? Surly there is. Yet we still argue, as if we are only children, we fight over the most petty things. Why can we not be united in differences? Can't we stand up for what we believe, and for who we love? Why can't we? Unite my brothers in Christ, my brothers in homosexuality, my brothers in humanity! Stand strong and firm through the coming storm. A world divided WILL fail. Just as the mighty empires of the world, nothing is savable from the grips of what we see as this world. We, as the inhabitants of the earth MUST unite, we must stand as one body, one faith. Though our beliefs may be different, do not most religions teach of one thing? Love. Why do we reject our calling? Do not put forth your morals in exchange for worldly goods, If you can give, give. do not take with an open hand, yet take only what is needed. Give with an open hand, give what you have to give. Do not give more than you have, for this will not help. Give what you can.

I am only a lone boy, who understands the concepts of what it takes to be a good person, I am only 15. I have had trials in my life, and yet I've stayed steadfast to what I believe and now as another trial comes, I will still stand here. I will preach what I think, what I know. Let the winds of faith have what she may do to me, but she cannot rip what I believe out of me. For I do not hold my beliefs in my hands, I hold them in my heart. My soul longs for this world to hold what they believe, but to hold the ideas of others closer. Surly there is one truth in this world, and that is we are all flawed in one way or another. Friends, if you think that your a perfect, I'm sorry, but you are not. Whether you have lied, stolen, or God forbid murdered, you are just as guilty as another. But when you know what you've done is wrong, Christ will forgive you. I am only one person, I've set out to change the way the world sees itself. Just as a fire consumes itself, the earth will as well unless something is done! My friends, I plead of you, forget petty differences, Jew, Muslim, Christian, Buddhist, or Hindu we are all one in this world. Do not fight my friends. Take head of what your heart tells you. Do not let the earthly temptations pull you back into this world. We are all from this earth, we will all be in the same place. Never feel alone, for there are others in your same situation. My friends, I love you all, there is no reason to hate.

Hate only what is a downfall. Hate war, hate racism, hate gender discrimination and discrimination of any kind.

--James

Sleep well, earth.

FML

Okay, I never use "fml", but I feel its a correct time to use it.

My grandma wants me to stop talking to the guy I LOVE because he's being pervy. Wait, a teenage boy being pervy? Is that even possible? Right, because there are no pervy teenage boys? Show me one teenage boy who isn't even a little pervy, and I'll give you 1$. I mean, really? Do they phase out the memory of there childhood when people get pregnant/get someone pregnant? Is that why my old step dad was so out there, because he had no bio kids? Thats just messed up. My sister hits and kicks and gets away Scott free, yet I get in trouble for loving? My god, I've been offered Weed, Beer, and Sex at school, what did I do, I said no. I find one thing in the whole damn world that makes me happy, and they find it wrong!? THEY SEEM TO THINK THAT THERE THE ONLY PEOPLE GOING THROUGH THIS SAME THING!!!! So get this, there going to try to stop me from talking to my boy. Well, they can try, but I swear, there are so many people that I know will help me. Save me from them. I'm thinking about calling Shana and seeing if she'll pick me up for a little while until I can calm down. If I knew KC in real life, and if he didn't have a penis, they'd be fine with it. But they can't accept that this is a different time than when they were kids. "The bible says that homosexuality is WRONG" First, I don't believe it does. Second, doesn't it also endorse slavery? I mean, why? Why must people be like this? Because they care more about there religion than there kids happiness? This is a call for help. I'm calling Shana. I hope this all works out. God bless...

I had a revilation!

I dunno why, but I wrote this all down...

if Satan truly knew our straights, he'd know that one day, with the power of the LORD of all creation, ALL humanity will over come the gates of sins temptation. Jesus did not come to save some who believe in him, but all. Nether Catholic, Jehovah's wittinesses, or Mormons will burn in the gates of hell forever. Does the bible not say that he who Believe in him shall not parish, but have ever lasting life? Shall we make war on behalf of the peace maker? Surly we should not. And if one shall die without knowing the joys of the Christ, will he burn in Hell? I say not. Just as surely as the Lord is the creator, he will teach them the truth. The gates of hades are only for those who die, knowing the power of Jesus the Christ, and yet, not believing it. Did not Issiah say that one day every knee will bow, and tongue confess allegiance to him? Does it matter than, brothers and sisters, what we think is the truth, if we trust in the Messiah will we not be saved? The God of his people will save him who desires to be saved, but he who knows Jesus is the Messiah, and forbids him, the gates of hell have a spot for him. Love all the brothers of the world, love the sisters the same. If a man comes to your door begging for food, do you give him money and say "go buy food" or do you give him bread, knowing that he will now have the energy to work.

...
well...

I can't say enough

Written for my sweet, sweet mate, KC

*WRITTEN BY JAMES WEBSTER; DO NOT COPY* UNDER PENALTY OF LAW*

How can one express his emotions on paper? How can one be safe? Can one ever be safe? Only in the arms of his love can he be truly safe. The feel of your loves arms, the knowledge that the arms that'll never let you go, that'll never hear the end. I will wrap my arms around you, hold you closely to my side! Never let anyone hurt you, for to me, that'd be sigh. If anyone has hurt you, may god help them. You are my world, and I will be you're tower. The brinks of hate may reach the end of time, but surely this love will never reach the end, for it cannot die. Just as the moon has the sun, just as surly they are in love, just as surly that the Lord made them all, is as sure that I will be to you. There is nothing more that i love than you. These words, they will surly fade away one day. But the inspiration will be eternal, like a god it will never fail. I will fight for you in the gravest hour, as sure you will do for me. I love you.

*with permission, you may use.

I WAS A CO-CONCLER, DAMNIT! P3

Wow, I think I might just change the STB to I was a co-concler, damnit. Three posts with the same title makes a new record. Anyway. I still am suppressing feelings of love and hate, I mean, my god, how can I do this to myself? Theres someone...who's a firefighter, and I'm a wildfire. I'll burn until the fuel is gone, and he's trying to put me out, but he knows when he does he'll freeze, but doesn't realize it. I need to stop. Tell people how I feel.

So my mom has really considered, when shes out of jail, moving to one of four states. California or Arizona look like I might be blogging from later! I hope its CA, I have some friends there. Eh. Anyway, Hope y'all have a GREAT halloween!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gfV19Yrl9nk

A dream is worth what?

Oh my god. I had the weirdest dream last night.

There I was, running from a mysterious figure. I caught a good glimps of him once, his blue eyes were like bullets and shot threw me. I I ran down a small ally. I was afraid of him. Suddenly, and surprisingly, the sidewalk under my feel slowly fell out from under me. I was there, floating. I looked around as I heard a voice say my faults, and my fears. I looked around. Nothing. No one. Just a voice echoing out from the space around me.

Thats how it happened. There was one thing that the voice said that scared me, somewhat, I can't tell ya, because its a problem I'm in currently. Put it this way, I'm scared. I've had strange dreams all week, and I kinda don't want to sleep.

Do what is needed...

Normally thats my motto. Anyone who knows me well enough will tell you that if you mess with my kin (family or friends) you're in for one hell of a fight. I don't care who you are, if you mess with my mate, my friends, or my family, you better be able to afford new teeth. That might be outta line, but really, is it? I mean, you touch one hair on the head of my mate, well, you best be ready. You harm one of my future kids, god help you. You hurt my friends or family, I will not hold back. I've had to do things like this before, to. March into the assistant Principal at school because my little sister got in trouble for something she DID NOT do, I fixed it and she was off the hook. But if you mess with my kin, you best be ready to fight.

But when does that go to far? When you're sitting on your lazy ass, laughing at some TV show, when your own father is in the hospital dieing? HOW DO YOU DO THAT!?!? I DESPISE PEOPLE LIKE THAT! Well, thats all for me.

I WAS A CO-CONCLER, DAMNIT! P2

A follow up of I WAS A CO-CONCLER, DAMNIT!
---------------------
Fall in love in three days
Let your mate find out
He still loves you
Get sad
Talk to your love
Talk to your mate
He says that he'll love you no matter what.
Notice that you might be being used.
Listen to your friends.
Love you're mate.
Love your love
But not the same as your mate.
Never do that.
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Sounds like a plot for a book. Maybe I'll write one...err...than again, it sounds like it'd take a long time, which I don't have. But thats not the point. I feel dumb. How could I love anyone like my mate? HOW!? I don't care if they are the nicest, sweetest, cutest person on earth, my mate should come first. Crushes are nothing. I shouldn't resort to them to hang my problems on. My mate always comes first. My friends and my sister come second. My crushes are nothing more than friends I might have grown to attached to. I dunno. Should I, shouldn't I. I will stand by my mate, than my sister, than my friends.

well, thats all from me tonight

--James

PS. Just disregard this.

Scared.

My life is in ruins. My god, my sister is always there and yelling. And people just gotta yell at me. I'm scared and they don't understand. I'm so scared now. I'm sitting here shaking and just gotta tell someone, even if no one reads this, it'll be good just to vomit my feelings up right now. I gotta tell you, theres so much turbulence in my heart right now, that I feel like a river, at some point there has to be a waterfall. We can only pray that our raft stays afloat. Theres no doubting that the raft will end up going under at one point or another, but as long as it bobs back up, we WILL be safe. I dunno what I'm going to do. There are friends there, holding out a hand (or paw), all wanting to help. But there are so few people I can trust today. Or any day. I can't trust my sister ever again, my family is there, lovingly tripping me trying to destroy all I hold dear, and yet all I can think of is what a friend told me some time ago...

James, It'll get better. Trust in yourself and your god.

Isn't that what we all should do? So much has happened, and so many have died. I dunno. I'll live, i know that much.

Life is so different from one person to another. Some people born into riches and a life of sex and drugs have a horrible life, others born into a life of farming, and growing up right have a great life, still others are born into that small town family, and there life is what they make of it. What they make of it. What an interesting five words. No one else chooses for you, and you don't live with the chooses of your fathers before you. Life is also unfair. How does God let a couple who would be wonderful parents not have children, and yet, lets the worst kind of people have far to many children? How does God let love become so diluted like milk in water. So diluted that this world cannot see what love is. Love is not a personality, Love is not a home, Love is a feeling that you have for other people, love dose not judge, love can be for anyone or anything. I love my family, even if there ideals are a little bit off the mark, I love my friends, and I love my future mate even more. I love people I don't even know. If there is suffering in this world, how can we as fellow humans let this go on? Do we not know our own suffering? Would it not have been help if someone offered a shoulder to lean on? Would it be so hard to give some of our time to help people, to make people happy. I say not. And yet, time is valuable. Shouldn't you spend it with the ones you love most. Indeed you should. Yet as humans it is our need to see people happy. It is also our need to have someone next to you, to hug and hold close. This world and this life are just the start of a grand journey where we find out mate, and when this life fades as it will, the only thing that will carry on in our hearts are love. And that love cannot fade, it will not fall apart. As this life is not the end, it is the start, the friends we make will always be friends, our mate will always be our mate. If one should die without friends or a mate, god bless him. He who endureth to the end shall be saved. I don't often quote bible versus, but I felt this one was needed...love will always endure. The love of two people is stronger than even the greatest steel beam, and it will last forever. From this life to the next life that God has prepared for us, a life time and more with your mate is all you can hope for, no?

Well, I feel better now.

I WAS A CO-CONCLER, DAMNIT!

DAMN IT! I've been belittling my damn emotions again! I'm so upset that my feet are freezing! DAMN IT! I was a co-concealer, and now I'm fucking my emotions!? WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME? I'm a young, 15 year old who should get off his fucking ass and get out the damn door and get doing something. My lord, I've changed in the past two months. More pervy (is that bad?), more...non-understanding. Three months ago I was confronted with a problem, and could think for a few moments, and come up with a solution that was full proof. But now, I can't even handle my own fucking problems. I could blame it on anything, school, hormones, family, friends, but its my own fault. I could go out on a limb and say that I want to kill myself for attention, but thats not me. I could stay too near the tree and not let anyone in. Or I could go out a few feet, sit, and let people help me down. I think I'll do what my heart tells me. Go where the wind blows me.

Wow, its been a while since I last posted here. I'd like to correct myself. On the last post from...a LONG time ago. I said Justin was 16, but he was 17, a kinda easy mistake to make when you're in a state of distress. Anyway!

Boy the summer has gone fast from when I posted my first post in June. Now its fall. And soon I'll be going back to where I started, to the Ol' Mill for a hike. Wow. Just thinking about everything thats happened the past five, almost six months blows my mind. In a half a year I've grown up a lot, gotten myself a mate, lost him for six hours, than got back together with him. I've been stabbed in the heart by myself, been fought with, lost a few friends, and got enough back. Wow. Its been a loooooooong five months.

Justin

I don't know why justin died...it should have been me, he was so caring, he'd give you everything without a second thought

Thats what I said to my friend a bit before...
Justin was killed in a car crash yesterday, he was only 16. I know that there are people who love me, but Justin gave all his free time to complete strangers. He once invited me to a food bank, you should have seen the look on his face. It said it all. Joy, happiness. He will be missed forever...

As the fall set upon us, you left, so young, so loving. The trees themselves morn, as if the earth as lost a friend. I should have been there, to say goodbye. life is so frail, so fragile. You were thinking one moment, gone the next. The doctors said that you didn't feel anything. I wish the ones you left were so blessed. We cry, sob, even though you said not to. How can we not? We lost one of the greats in the world...
Justin, you'll be missed.

blondesdoitbest19
::BUZZ::

lastpaw
I'm 15 years old and gay, leave me the hell alone.

blondesdoitbest19
hey there cutie???

lastpaw
I'm 15
Your doing something Illigal

blondesdoitbest19
who is this again? Sorry I don't recognize the name lol
Oh Ok LOL,Nice!how you doin??

lastpaw
...

blondesdoitbest19
I'm actually working right now what are you doing exactly??

lastpaw
...
Please stop

blondesdoitbest19
nice, nothin I work from home just starting doing these cam shows It's pretty fun actually lol

lastpaw
Look, I'm 15, not 18, and I'm gay
STOP

blondesdoitbest19
I am a little busy right now cant really talk here but I would LOVE if you came to watch and give me some company, and maybe a GOOD rating ??
well I think i have my free friend's pass lyin here one sec babe.. I mean would you want it??

lastpaw
No
>___________>

blondesdoitbest19
are you busy?
yup, I do got another pass left!..YAY.. just please don't tell anyone else I can get in trouble. What color panties should I put on for you sexy, i'll let you pick! LOL

lastpaw
WOMEN DON'T ATTRACT ME!!
I'M 15!

blondesdoitbest19
Ok, go to http://tinyurl.com/BACARDIBARBIE scroll all the way down to the bottom babe, and you will see "friends of ME", click that and when you get the password page, put in the password:"ken" okay?

lastpaw
gay
no intrest

blondesdoitbest19
k, if you entered as my friend, it should say 0.00, if so you are good for my free friend's pass dont worry about the autorenew the pass cancels all charges
CC is just to verify your age hun,its the sites policy to ensure no minors get access to the site .. i gave u my free friend's pass

blondesdoitbest19
ok let me know when you get in so I can invite you directly to my cam.
k, you in yet babe?? Don't keep me waiting!

lastpaw
I'm 15
and gay
Nothing you said attracts me

blondesdoitbest19
k when u login click LIVEWEBCAMS and I'm the girl on the top row farthest to the left. There's a chat there so I'll see u there babe ... maybe u tell me what to do

lastpaw
SHUT UP!

blodesdoitbest19
if its not working u can always visit me on my other site.. go to http://tinyurl.com/SOFLYY fill out the form and when you see the secret code box put in "adminpass09" and ur set with my trial pass!!

lastpaw
15
>________>
Minor
I should report you to the police
but I cant
because I'm 15
and your a robot.

Changing winds

Changing winds, soar high above the earth
The Winds shape the earth
The earth, shape by the winds

Sometimes I feel like hiding, running away and dieing. But than I remember, you're here, I love you. When I feel blue, dead and hated, I run to you. Through all we stand, lovers, hated by many, because of it. But love can stand through fire, floods, love can withstand everything...I love you...

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Hey y'all, my sister wants to kill me! Have a great day! :-)

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Hey guys! Told ya I'd be updating again Monday!

We had some really nasty storms blow through here.

Starting next week I'll be covering different countries. Night guys (I
know, not a good update, but yeah)

Noramly I wouldn't post about weather on this blog (at least, what dosn't apply to me) , but I feel the need to. Today, there is a mod risk area, with a 45% risk area for wind in parts of Iowa, Northren Illinois, and Sothren Wisconsin. Severe storms have been on going for quite a while. We can see the risk area here. Stay safe, and stay okay.

In my neck of the woods, its so humid outside, that it feels like a pressure cooker. 

Thats what was suppost to be on the last post.

I know, not the normal sound you hear from me. I know I said updates would resume on Monday, but this can't wait.

Well, here goes nothing.

Its a pome

How can I live

Without you?

My soul longs for you

My love.

Why couldn't I see

How much I longed for you? This life is only once

But Love, it is forever

Though the Frosty winter nights

And Hot summer days

I can't belive it

The feeling I have

How can I tell you

That I love you?

If I do who knows

You could said "me too"

Oh the joy it would bring.

But I know we are not in a story

And I'm not the Author

This book is being written

In tears, blood, and sweat.

The Author is unknown

A figure obscure

I can not choose my path

For it is chosen for me

I can not live my life

It is lived for me

Death inseeds death

As soul fades to God

The body is gone

But love will endure.

The strongest wars

And the pettyist fights

Don't have to be faught.

We must relise life is presious.

We are only a blink

In the world

What we Try to do

And what we do

They are not us

We are us

My love

I cannot stand to be without you

But I can't

For now.

But memory will last

As will love

You may have left

The humanly bonds of Earth

But your life is in me.

I love you

Forever.

To...Someone

By--James Webster

TEST. 

See, I'm trying out my new MAIL IN BLOG ish thing. Updates will resume in a week. Unfortunatly the past week has been hammering me. Monday will resume update. 

I may have a new favorite song...

Gots a new camera!

Yup! I gots it for my bithenday.

Karma...a lesson

Well, this is for you all who believe in it. Karma is if you do something good, good will happen to you, and vice versa for bad stuff. Well, I was thinking, that something that looks good, or bad, dose not mean that it is. For instance, if your girlfriend breaks up with you, you might be sad at first, but than you might meet someone who is much, much better for you. Or if you meet someone, date them, are happy, but there abusive; if your bad, bad will happen, if your good, good WILL happen. Thats all for now.

Lp

More racism...sad

http://www.cnn.com/2009/HEALTH/07/23/doctors.attitude.race.weight/index.html?eref=rss_topstories

Read that...

What the bloody hell!? Pardon my language, but, what!?! As you guys might have picked up, I HATE racism. The thing is, that most doctors did that. I have a feeling that its not just doctors. It makes me very, very mad when people are treated different due to skin color, gender, gender preference, the list goes on. When a friend of mine didn't get a job at Walmart, because he was gay (or so he claimed) I contacted Walmart, and checked a few things. I admit that he might not be the greatest worker, but they hired someone with a criminal record, who was 27, over a 16 year old with no record of criminal activity. My friend found another job, and well, a few (like 5) people's families don't shop there anymore. I'm not saying not to shop there, but, its a long story. Still shop there, his family still dose, and they have great deals. Ha, I sound like an advertisement. But its not fair. Hey, let my try something. If any of you have been discriminated against, drop me a comment, or email (lastpaw@yahoo.com), or tweet me, and I'll look into it. We should have been out of racism before it started. Hmm, I think I'll change the title from "Okay, heres one..." to "More racism...sad"

OOT (Out of Town) for a while!

Yep, I'll be OOT for a few more days, though, I have my lappy now, and wifi, I'll try to update nightly. As a reminder, I'm almost always micro-blogging via twitter, and you guys can fallow me @ www.twitter.com/lastpaw

Anyway, today was Summer's birthday, and I had a BLAST in the pool. As most of ya know, I love to swim, and I hate not swimming. I'm back at my Uncle and Aunts house again (the one I was at all week last week), and I'm going to have fun. Sounds like the dryer is off balance. Well, now it sounds like its done.

I feel great today, and I hope all of you do to. Night all!

--Lastpaw

Sorry for a week w/o updates...

I've been at my Uncle's and Aunts house. I was hanging out with my friend Brad, and made two new friends, Haley and Brennen (sorry if I spelled that wrong...). I Hung out with Shana (aunt) a while, too, but mostly when Brad was doing something, we caught salamanders. But you guys are gonna just LOVE this. Brad called storm chasers geeks, and babies, but, I told him I'd take him on a chase next year. That'll be fun. OH! And a cat went into labor on me, literally, she was on my lap when she started making odd noises, and she was going into labor! I get to keep two (I think) kittens. Summer's birthday's coming up, so I'll be helping Mike (uncle) set up for that.

Wouldn't you know that the one day I leave, my family gets HAMMERED by severe weather.

Anyway, for not updating, heres a gift, a classic.

What a day...so far

Hello guys! Whats up with you? Me, well, quite a bit today. For one, my school computer was finaly picked up! Last week of summer school, and I gotta tell you, I'm gonna miss the friends I made there. Gonna be a long summer, though, I hope, that I'll have fun.

I know the plains I have for you says the Lord...

Jerimiah 29:11

Great day! In the Basement!

I had a great day today! Now were blogging live from dadadahudalada! The Basement. Next week is my last week of summer school, it'll be great. Anywho, you ever get burned from bacon on...a...well...brest? Yeah, my sister threw a peice at me. Not fun. Not fun.

Swim Club racism

Yeah, I'm sure you've read (or watched) about this. Now, I HATE racism. Now there claiming that they didn't do anything, yet one of the members said that she hoped they wouldn't do anything. That member should have been dissmissed from there "exclusive" club.

Its 1:00PM out, but looks like its evening

Yeah. LOTS of thunder, as you've seen on my twitter AC. Its like non stop thunder. Lots of rain, aswell.

Anywhosit. Not much to say, other than this

Jack, you remember the summer school kid, said "I'm gonna smoke some grass." He sits down and picks up some grass from the earth, you know, the avarage grass, not marujauna. Grass. Hmm.

Buh bye Anthrocon!

Could be severe weather tomorrow in my area!

The title says it all. Hey guys.

Hey guys, fallow my on Twitter! www.twitter.com/lastpaw

WEATHER ALERT!!!

Hey my friends, I'd thought I'd take a moment to post a MOD RISK area issued for severe wx by the SPC. There could be a few ISOLATED tornados. |I know what your thinking, if not tornados, than what| Well, it's for what we in the weather world call an MCS, or Deracho. Deracho's can go for hundreds if not thouseneds of miles. There are often severe winds with an MCS, and will often enough propt what is called a PDS severe thunder storm watch. That means there is a HIGH risk for severe wind in that small area. We could see one of these today into tonight, but I doubt it.

" ZCZC SPCPWOSPC ALL

   WOUS40 KWNS 081229    NDZ000-SDZ000-082030-        PUBLIC SEVERE WEATHER OUTLOOK      NWS STORM PREDICTION CENTER NORMAN OK    0729 AM CDT WED JUL 08 2009        ...SEVERE THUNDERSTORMS EXPECTED OVER PARTS OF THE NORTHERN PLAINS    LATE AFTERNOON THROUGH TONIGHT...        THE NWS STORM PREDICTION CENTER IN NORMAN OK IS FORECASTING THE    DEVELOPMENT OF WIDESPREAD DAMAGING WINDS OVER PARTS OF THE NORTHERN    PLAINS LATE AFTERNOON THROUGH TONIGHT.        THE AREAS MOST LIKELY TO EXPERIENCE THIS ACTIVITY INCLUDE               CENTRAL AND SOUTHERN NORTH DAKOTA           MUCH OF SOUTH DAKOTA        ELSEWHERE...SEVERE STORMS ALSO ARE POSSIBLE FROM EASTERN MONTANA    ACROSS THE REMAINDER OF THE NORTHERN PLAINS THIS AFTERNOON AND    EVENING...AND SOUTHEASTWARD ACROSS PARTS OF THE LOWER MISSOURI    VALLEY REGION OVERNIGHT.        A MIDDLE-UPPER LEVEL TROUGH IS EXPECTED TO MOVE FROM THE PACIFIC    NORTHWEST ACROSS THE NORTHERN HIGH PLAINS THIS AFTERNOON AND    EVENING.  MEANWHILE A RELATED COLD FRONT SHOULD PROGRESS EASTWARD    ACROSS THE DAKOTAS INTO A PROGRESSIVELY MORE MOIST AND UNSTABLE AIR    MASS.  THUNDERSTORM POTENTIAL WILL REMAIN SUPPRESSED MOST OF THIS    AFTERNOON BY A STRONG CAPPING INVERSION OF WARM AIR ABOVE GROUND    LEVEL.  NONETHELESS...BECAUSE OF THE FAVORABLE LEVELS OF    MOISTURE...INSTABILITY...LIFT AND WIND SHEAR...WE EXPECT THIS CAP TO    BREAK OVER PARTS OF THE NORTHERN HIGH PLAINS AND DAKOTAS...PERHAPS    AS EARLY AS LATE AFTERNOON.          SUPERCELLS WITH LARGE HAIL...SEVERE THUNDERSTORM WIND AND A FEW    TORNADOES ARE POSSIBLE AT FIRST.  THEN...SEVERE STORMS SHOULD GET    MORE NUMEROUS THIS EVENING...GROWING INTO A COMPLEX WITH POTENTIAL    FOR A WIDESPREAD AND LONG-LASTING THUNDERSTORM WIND DAMAGE EVENT    KNOWN AS A DERECHO.  THE GREATEST THREAT AREA APPEARS TO BE OVER    PARTS OF THE DAKOTAS.  FOR MORE METEOROLOGICAL DETAILS PLEASE SEE    THE SPC CONVECTIVE DAY-1 OUTLOOK...WHICH IS BEING UPGRADED TO    WIND-BASED MDT RISK TO REFLECT THE THREAT.        STATE AND LOCAL EMERGENCY MANAGERS ARE MONITORING THIS DEVELOPING    SITUATION. THOSE IN THE THREATENED AREA ARE URGED TO REVIEW SEVERE    WEATHER SAFETY RULES AND TO LISTEN TO RADIO...TELEVISION...AND NOAA    WEATHER RADIO FOR POSSIBLE WATCHES...WARNINGS...AND STATEMENTS LATER    TODAY."

Thats what the NWC is calling for today!

MJs Memoral

We've, over what seems like has been forever, have known MJ. Despite what happened during his trials, whether he was guilty, or he wasn't guilty, he has united the world today. There are countless mourners, all over the world, whether Pittsburgh, Pa, or Pittsburg, Texas. Burmingham, Al, or Burmingham, Eg. He'll be remembered forever. RIP, MJ.

RIP Michael Jackson

The title says it all. RIP Michael Jackson, the king of pop.

lengthy words=humerus? (PG-13 for swearing on post)

Yeah, whoops. Forgot to. Now, onto business.

A student (I will not say his name) at my summer school was smoking (Not really the reason I'm blogging about it) and HE WAS SITTING ON THE DAMN ROAD! So anywhoist, don't to that. I know what your thinking, which one. Both. Don't smoke, or sit on the road. Also in Summer school news...I ended up getting a bicentennial quarter from the vending machine.

Also in summer school news is another student (We'll call him...Jack) is the most annoying, best example of a 'bark worse than bite', kid at our school. I'd normally find it sad if a kid didn't have any friends, but when someone dose it to themselves...well...for no reason at all. I doubt that Jack reads this blog, but if he dose, he knows who he is, he needs to be a little smarter when it comes to his choose his words better. Its sad to see a kid like that...being...well...abonoxus.

!!!UPDATE!!! The kid was fighting, and lost...like I said, he is more bark than bite.!!!UPDATE!!!

That brings me to my next summer school news thingy, there is a girl whom sits in front of me (she knows who she is.) She laughs at any word over six characters. Its so funny! I said that Sit On Road looked dumbfounded at something and she just cracked up; thats not the only time, though. There were quite a few other times with larger words.

Anyway, thats all for today!

-Lp

Mini-vication!

Yep! Going the creepest of all the Great Lakes, lake Erie. Unfortunatly due to e-coli, we aren't going to be able to swin in our normal spot. But hey! We bought a grill to bring w/ us, got quick and easy stuff to make for breakfest, its gonna be a blast!! No doubt I'm going to bring a camera, the lake is such a wounderful place, if fact, when I move out, I might move there. I could take online corses in Metrology. Yay. Lake Effect!

Anywhosit...

Nope, thats all

First day of July! Shoe though roof???

Yep, its the rist of JULY!!!!!!!!

Also, there was a shoe though the roof at summer school. Imagin trying to kick a hackysac, your shoe comes off, and goes though a plaster tile on the roof. Thats what happened. However, he didn't get into troble, due to the fact that accidents happen!

Silverwood

-1000 years ago- A cold chill hung in the air like a blanket. Fog hugged the earth, the moon was just visible though the thick clouds that obscured it. The dark, deep night absorbed any light that was sent its way. The crack of a whip broke the silence like shattered glass. "Sir, the war...has started."

    -Silverwood- 

    Hushed sounds came from the towns people. Rumors spread like wildfire in the dead heat of August, and this was no more than that, or so I thought. The mayor stepped up to speak, and like magic, the crowd quieted down. "Thank you, friends. I have some news, startling at that", a feminine voice boomed out. Mayor Loudry, though she was more like a queen to her people. She united three war stricken cities, and created a three city megalopolis, The cities of Loudry (from which was renamed for the Mayor), Masiu, and Silverwood city. "the war that started over 1000 years ago has been rekindled. The embers of murderous fighting have came to our peaceful land. Cavina has officially entered the war." Gasps echoed though the crowd, anything from whispers to shouts could be heard. 

    "NOW HOLD ON!" The mayors voice said. The shouts turned into a dull whisper. "Thank you, there taking all able bodies, please." Loudry said. Loudry stepped down, and, both her friend and manager of affairs stepped up. "Now who will stand up for there country, there nation, the place they call home. To fight for both friends and strangers, who will be in debt to you for the fight?" He said. Matt Gorden was his name, and was the (for the most part) unseen part of the mayors success story. "I will." A young man said, standing up. "I shall as well!" A 30 or so woman said. Soon enough there were over 90 people to be in the army. I sighed, able bodies, not me. I was only a slave, part human, part animal. "KEITH!" My master. 

    "Yes sir?" I asked. Born and raised in Silverwood; I could speak English fluently. "I'll be leaving, I'm leaving you incharge of the house. Your the one the damn slave who have never tried to escape, and has never tried to kill me." He said. Slave. Only becouse I was part wolf. A wave of emotions flowed over me. He held out his hand, and in it was a key. My heart jumped. Was he really offering my the key to his house? "...and Keith, you know what this means, your free after this." I nodded, taking the key. There was an odd sort of feeling in me, a mix of emotions, 

    Master called a cart, and I got on. "Oh don't be stupid Keith, you know your riding up here." Lissa's voice called. Lissa, Masters daughter, and the only one who had ever shown respect to me. I nodded no, I'd much rather be with my friends. I sat down, straw and hay surrounded me. Suddenly, something pounced on me. "LEE! GET OFF!!!!" I cried in my native language of Yina. "Aww, party pooper." "If you say so, Le--" I said, before Lee saw the key dangling around my neck--I had put it on a string, and hung it there. "Oh...your...leaving...bu...I...w...I...I'LL MISS YOU!!!" Lee cried out. What was amazing is that Lee didn't really see anything--he was blind--but his olfactory seines were that of legend.

    "Don't worry, Lee. Who said I wanted to go anywhere?" I said, although I did want to leave the living hell I was kept in. "So...so your not goin...going anywhere!?" He asked me. I nodded. "Lee, I'd never leave you." I said, hugging him. That much was true. Lee and I had grown up together, and I'd never go anywhere without him. The cart lurched forward. Tonight. A thought occurred to me, master would be gone, I'd have the key. 

    "So, Keith? Whats up with you and Ann?" Lee asked me. "What? Nothing is up..." I said. "Yeah, sure." "NOTHINGS UP!" Lee sighed. "If you say so." He said, collapsing down, laying his head on my chest. "I love you like a brother, Keith, your the closes thing to family I've ever had." He said. "I think of you like a brother, too, Lee; Brothers don't leave there brothers, not now, not ever." I said. That much was true, heck, some might even say were closer than brothers. It'd be a long drive, we'd only took one horse, and the house was 30 some miles away. Waves of red lit the sky, the sun was setting, slowly becoming dimmer. 

"Nature's first green is gold, 

Her hardest hue to hold. 

Her early leaf's a flower; 

But only so an hour. 

Then leaf subsides to leaf. 

So Eden sank to grief, 

So dawn goes down to day. 

Nothing gold can stay."

Robert Frost

   

  CHAPTER I

    The cart continued its slow path home. Lee was sleeping like we had left, he'd fallen asleep a while back. I didn't know how I'd do this. I'd escape, with Lee. The bumpy cart would soon come to a stop, but for now, I was content. Unless... "Lee," I said, "Lee, wake up!" I said. "What? Where are we, Kei--" He said, before I jumped out of the slowly moving cart. I still held Lee's shirt, and he came tumbling onto me. "Fallow me, quick and quiet." I said, as we ran into woods. We ran for about a half an hour, until two things happened, we came across a small creek, and our legs couldn't carry us any longer. "Keith...I can't believe you did that..." Lee said, tears welling up inside of him. "You mean did that for you. Its like I said, your like a brother. I love you,like a brother. I'd never leave you." "I love you too, Keith." Lee said, starting to bawl. "Don't cry." I said, taking off the key master had given me, and throwing it. "Were together on this." I said. In retrospect, it wasn't the smartest thing to do, I'd think later, though I had no idea at that time. Soon enough Lee was asleep, curled up next to me, I meant what I said. I'd sooner die than see him die. Soon enough, the world faded away, and I fell asleep. 

    I woke to the smell of cooked goose. I was hungry. My eyes popped open and I saw a fire going, with Lee tending to it. There was, indeed, a goose being cooked. "Morning, Keith. Hungry?" He asked me. I nodded, and thought about asking him where he got it, but ended up forgetting, after all, Lee was a great hunter, and even better chef. I got up, and walked over to him. "Man, I can't believe you cooked this!" He nodded. Soon enough it was done, and it tasted amazing! "Lee, your a great cook. You really are." I said, honestly. Lee smiled at me, and said "Naw, I'm not." He said. He was humble to. It didn't matter if we were blood brothers, we were truly brothers. A crackle from the fire broke the silence. "Well, were gonna have to walk today, until we reach...well...I don't know where." I said. That much was true. It hadn't occurred to me where we would go.

    A muffled sound came from the bushes. Someone was watching us. Lee instantly registered the threat, the same as I did. I slowly moved forward; the sound of a bow stretching caught my attention. A thunk came from behind me. Lee. Laying on the ground. Clearly hit.  

A Short story, Forbeden

“Sorry I’m late…I had to convince my father I was going out on a hunt.” I said. Forbidden love…a dragon anthro and wolf anthro, I was the dragon of course. “That’s fine, this damn feud. I hate it.” Lissa, the wolf, said. “I agree.” I said. We were in love, and we talked. It was sad really, the two greatest races on earth constantly fought. Too make matters worse, Lissa was the daughter of General Mark Lawuc, the master general and highest ranking general in Arktexla, the land that the wolves inhabited. My family too was a high ranking in the military of Tainaru, the land that the dragons did.

We were in a cave, out in the open, who knows what could happen. Thick, green moss grew on the wall; a damp, earthy smell covered us. The rock around us glistened as the sun hit it. The colors were amazing, blue danced with green in a way that made the sun itself jealous. But that was soon over, as the sun no longer hit the spot.

We sat and talked for about three hours. The sun was low in the west sky, and we both knew we had to go. I was on the farthest south coast of Arktexla, the Lakly peninsula and, because I could fly, I lived in Wensen. Soon enough we said our good byes, gave each other a kiss and left. I spread my wings and flew over the salty, deep blue Ritchrock Sea. There were small islands that dotted the way over, and from this view I could see the great, snowcapped moutons that bordered Lakly, I could see the cold water. That was another thing that separated our kind, the landmasses themselves.

Arktexla, farther north than Tainaru, and much more hilly, and changing of elevation held huge moutons that stretched over 50,000 Feet in the air; huge pine forests grew in the small valleys. Over all, the land had almost no water, other than a few places where rivers cut the landscape. The cool climate, the cool sea, and the high peaks enhanced snowfall that during the winter could reach over ten feet in some storms.

That compared to the landscape of Tainaru, it was astounding that it could border so close to Arktexla. Tainaru was waterlogged, flat, warm, area. We were an area of islands; the biggest of witch was only about 400 miles across. Eventually though I made it home.

I landed on an old, dusty road. Dust and sand flew up from the earth. The sun had faded away, and bright auroras gave birth to glisten sheets of greenish blue. “Tyler! You’ll never guess what happened!” My sister, Landra, said, running up to me. “What?” I asked. “We got a prisoner that was just caught on the Lakly peninsula.” She said. My heart sank. “What!?” I yelled, running off the prison. I leaned my head forward and started to zoom down the road, until the prison was before me. I walked in, flashing a pass stating my name and rank in the army. Too my horror it was Lissa. “Tyler?” She asked. “Shut up dumb wolf!” A somewhat portly man said, hitting her. I slapped him upside his head, and told him to leave the room, and he did.

I ran up and hugged her. “Are you okay!?” I asked. “I’m fine...” She said. A single tear ran down her furry cheek. “Tyler! They got them! My family! They killed everyone but my dad!” She said, exploding into tears. I hugged her. “There gonna kill me next!” She called out. “No, they will not.” I said, pulling out a heavy chain from my pocket. “Put this on your neck, your going to look like my slave.” I said. She did what she was told.

I talked to the guard, and convinced him that she was my escaped slave, and we walked out. The guard pulled her tail when we were leaving. I slapped him upside the head. “Don’t you dare ever, ever do that again, or I will and I am not kidding, have you fired, and thrown into jail.” I said. I walked out of the jail and started towards the woods. “Tyler…where are we going?” Lissa asked. “You’ll see…” I said. We walked for a while, until we came across a small cave. “For now…we’ll have to stay here.” I said. “We’ll? You mean!?” She asked, with growing excitement in her voice. “Yep, I’m staying here with you…but first I have to go.” I said. She nodded, and I left. I sighed, telling my parents would be the hardest thing I’d ever do.

I walked home, quickly. When I entered my house my father stood in the door way, “Way to go champ! We heard what you did! You took that female wolf into the woods and slain her!” He said, patting me on the back. “Well…dad…” I said, before my mom said the same thing. They kept complementing me, as I tried to get a word in edge wise. “STOP IT!” I yelled. “I have to say something…” I said, “What is it, Champ?” My father asked me. “I…well…” I said. “What?” My mother asked. “I’m in love wi—“ I said, before my father cut in, “What’s her name, She another military kid, what’s her scale color!?” He asked. “Her name’s Lissa. She is another military kid, a grand general actually, and…well…she has…” I said, swallowing all the time it took to hide my secret. “She doesn’t have scales…” I said. My fathers face looked confused, “She has…fur…she’s my…wolffie.” I said.

When that left my mouth, my stomach clenched. My father looked at me with disgust; his claws went towards a knife sitting on the table. “Son…run...” My mother’s voice echoed in my head. I ran out the door, just missing the knife my father threw at me. I fell down when I left the house. I flipped over in time to see him grabbing the knife. I reached down in my pocket and pulled out my own knife. I stood up and said, “Dad, let me leave this place!” I yelled. “You’re no son of mine. Go. If I find you or that…that…piece of fur you will both die!” He said.

At that, I left, having only my sword. The hike was long and tiring, but if I knew my dad he’d be sending his best men after us. When I found the cave, it was empty. My heart sank into my stomach. “LISSA!!!” I yelled. I could hear a muffled sound coming from behind a few rocks. I walked into the cave. The moss covered walls of it kept the smell of mold fresh in the air.

There was movement from behind the rock. I pulled my sword out. With my sword ready to swing, I walked to the rock. There I found Lissa, tied and gagged. I quickly untied her, and un-gagged her. “OH MY GOODNESS! WHAT HAPPENED!?” I exclaimed. She started to gasp for air, “Humans.” She said. A stark silence fallowed. It seemed like hours that the silence lasted.

I broke the silence, “But…but there extinct.” I said. “I thought so too…but they are alive.” Lissa said. I helped her off the cold, earthy floor. “We need to get going. I believe we have a bounty on our heads.” I said. The look on her face told me everything, fear, shock, and everything in between shown on her red furred face. We both had just been shocked. Humans had, to my knowledge, been extinct for hundreds of years. Since at least the battle of The Tavern of McLenui, They were the first of many species to become extinct. Or at least that’s what I had been told.

For a few seconds we sat there, before it hit us that we had to go. It was sad for me, and it had to be hard on her. I was leaving my family…forever, and her family had left her forever. But it was no time to cry, there were people who wanted us both dead, but we were focused on living…together…for the rest of our lives.

We started off quickly. I knew from flying that there was a small village about three miles west of where we were. We walked for some time. Soon enough we had arrived at the small dragon town. “Oh crap! I forgot! This is dragon town. Well, we have to stay somewhere.” I thought. Again, the chains came in handy. Once again, I chained her up as we entered the small town. “Vamopalain” An old sign read.

“Tyler…I don’t want to do this. It doesn’t feel right…I have an odd feeling.” She said. If this had been another dragon, I would have brushed the statement off, but it was a wolf. The instinct of a wolf was one of the keenest; brushing it off would have been a foolish thing to do. Unfortunately, I had to do what I had to do. “Lissa, you know I love you, and I know your right, but we have to go in here. We have no supplies, other than that on our backs, and…we have no choice.” I said, with a tone of regret in my voice.

The town had huge rocks scattered around it, thought to be, by some, the work of Gods. I however, believed in only one God.

Lissa clearly understood what I was saying. The streets of the town were brick, and a draining system for run off from snow melt (both in the moutons and the valley we were in now), the heavy rains of summer and spring, and flooding from small creeks and rivers that crossed the area. Dragons and Tigers ran amuck around us. “Well look who it is! Tyler!” A, very, and unfortunate, voice called to me. I turned around, hoping, praying, that it was not who I thought it was.

“Flora!” I said. It was who I thought it was. “Haven’t seen you for a while, been a year or two!” She said. The tiger’s blue eyes shown bright agents the orangeish color of her fur. “Three.” I said. I loved Flora like a sister, but she was a walking disaster. “How have you been?” I asked. “Great! I’ve been just great! And who’s your friend?” She asked. “Well…Lissa, meet Flora.” I said. The too shared glances. “What? Is that a….?” She asked. “Yeah, she’s a wolf.” I said.

“I don’t like your choice in slaves, Tyler. You should have picked something strong…like…a…a…”She said, her mind wondering. That was another one of her habits. “Never mind” She said. She asked me to go to her house, and though I wanted to reject, it would not have been the right thing to do.

-Later-

We sat down at Flora’s table. The twenty-two year old tiger had been my friend since we had been born, and at one time we had even considered moving in with one another. But that never happened, for reasons that I’ll never tell. Lissa started eating. “Tyler…why is your slave eating before you?” “Well…she’s not my slave…she’s my friend…my…girl…” I said. “Aww, Tyler, who knew that you’d get such a cute wo…gi…uhh…” Flora said. “Wait…you…don’t care?” I asked her.

“’Coarse not! You’re my friend. But you can’t stay here. I’m coming with you.” Flora said. I felt very, very, very happy. Flora walked me into another room and hugged me, not wanting Lissa to see. We walked back into the room. Our eyes both popped open. The better half of the meal was gone, and Lissa was still gulping things down.

“Uhh…Lissa?” I said. “Oh! Sorry, I just feel…hunger.” “and your getting a little pudgy.” Flora said. Lissa sighed. “Tyler…I have something to tell you…” Lissa said. She explained that in her land there were fixed, strict breeding laws, that at the age of twenty-one, all wolves were entered into the program. She also explained that she was also entered into the program. “…And that’s how it happened.” Lissa said.

I sighed. Lissa was pregnant. That was that. It was unfortunate, but I could tell that she was telling the truth. “How much longer….until…” I and Flora asked. “Soon…I was going to tell you Tyler! I’m sorry!” She said braking down into a fleet of tears. I hugged her, whispering “Don’t worry…” into her ears. It was then that I could feel tears running down my face as well. We hugged for what seemed like forever.

That, however, had, like all good things, come to an, unfortunate, sudden end. A knock at the door and a voice that said “Spot inspection!” made our hearts jump. The door flew open with a breath of cold, refreshing air. The man was well armed, and had huge metal plates around him. Flora did something that stunned me, and Lissa. She took off her shirt, leaving only a bra on, and screamed. “Sorry Mama!” The person said slamming the door shut. She rushed us into a closet, got her shirt back on and opened the door.

“Sorry mama. Uhh…your clean.” He said, walking away. She came back to the closet door and let us out. “When the bloody hell did that start!?!?” I asked. “Now…actually, last week.” Flora said. “So…dose anyone know how to deliver a baby?” Lissa asked. Flora and I looked at another. “There is a hospital up the road. We could say you’re our slave.” Flora said. Lissa asked “Can you get me there….now!?”

We picked her up and run down to the hospital. It was more of a sprint. By the time we got to the hospital Flora and I were out of breath, and Lissa was…well…unconscious. “HEY! GET HER A ROOM!” I yelled. “Wolves get zero priority.” A nurse said. “LOOK YOU! YOU WILL GIVE HER A ROOM AND NUMBER ONE PRIORITY!” I said. The intimidation of my fangs and the whiteness of scales made her say yes. A stretcher came out and took her away.

-One week later-

It had been a week. Lissa had been in the Intensive care unit for the entire time, Over that time, Flora and I had caught up on things when sitting in Lissa privet room. Today, however, was different. It was the day that my pup (even if it was not technically ‘Mine’) was going to come into the world. Lissa had been in the pregnancy ward all day today. Soon enough the doctor came out. The look on his face said it all.

“…Sir, Mama…we need to speak with you…” His voice said. It sounded gloomy, full of death. “We have some very….very bad news.” My heart and stomach jumped. Tears started to run down my face. “SHES DEAD. GOD NO! SHES DEAD!” I thought. “The wolf…we tried everything we could…but…she didn’t make it.” At that moment tears began to run down my face. “And the pup?” Flora asked. “Well…without the mother she will die.” Another wave of sadness washed over me. “She’ll die in less than two days.”

The sound of his voice cried out in my head. Thoughts raced though my mind, Tears ran down my scaled face. Suddenly a thought that startled even to me, “I’ll have her still!” I cried out. I pulled out of my knife. The steel ripped into my clothing. Light slowly faded away. There she was. More astounding than ever, the golden gates that stood above her head made me know, I was home.

~END~